Still hanging in there.

[ashelterofpages]

I've had a lot going on medically over the last several months and it's not going well. The short version is that insurance isn't allowing me to get procedures done that are medically needed for me to continue to keep my eyesight. It sucks, I'm tired, but we're still fighting it in a number of ways.

I started volunteering with a local nonprofit which is going really well. They're great people who want to work with me and help me find things I can do, even as the rest of my life and ability to do things is in flux. They're kind and very open to hearing ideas and giving them a try. They're pretty great.

I've found my way back to divination again. This is partially art store/nonprofit related but also just kind of something I've meant to do in general. I'm going back to the tarot post that I made earlier this year and doing those responses, just in case someone might need a late card reading.

I'm generally just operating on very low spoons but trying to keep my head up and find the good things where I can. It's going...as well as it can, I suppose, which is all I can ask for.

How're you holding up?

Comments

[matsushima]

The short version is that insurance isn't allowing me to get procedures done that are medically needed for me to continue to keep my eyesight.
… absolutely fuck insurance companies. I hope you and your doctors can keep fighting and find a way to get it covered. That's so fucked up.

[cornerofmadness]

I'm so sorry to hear that

[yarnofariadne]

Insurance companies are so evil. Wishing you all the luck and strength in your fight.

[mierke]

I'm sorry to hear insurance is fucking you over *hugs*

Yay for volunteering! It's always so nice with people who are open to new things.

[profiterole_reads]

Good luck with your insurance! Maybe try some crowdfunding as well, it doesn't always work much, but for some people it works well.

[theradicalchild]

I'm doing really miserably, even though I've been living on my own away from my horrible toxic parents due to severe PTSD, and my current psychiatrist hasn't helped worth a damn to the point where I'm planning on firing him after our next session (though I won't tell him then for obvious reasons) so I can get a new one that will actually help me recover mentally from all the trauma I've been through.

[rhoda_rants]

Effing insurance, ugh. I'm sorry. They're supposed to cover medical costs, that is their JOB. It boggles my mind how often they get away with just not doing it.

Good luck with your divination practice. I haven't looked at any of my cards in so long. Partly just due to not having the spoons for it, but also my mind has just been elsewhere. I don't always like what they tell me, and I need to be mentally okay with receiving it before I do a reading these days. Know what I mean?

[shanaqui]

Best wishes for insurance sorting themselves out. Gah.

It's hard to say how I'm doing. Hanging in here, I guess. Sometimes I'm super stressed, sometimes I think... nah, things are pretty chill, actually.

[adore]

It's infuriating that insurance won't cover the procedures you need. I hope there's a way to get the medical help you need.

The nonprofit sounds lovely, and I'm happy you're doing divination again. I hope more good things find you.

[dreamersdare]

Insurance companies suck. I have everything crossed that you win that fight

[lassarina]

oh, my god, fuck insurance, I will burn them with my mind. I'm so sorry.

I'm glad the volunteering is going well!

[ashelterofpages]

Honestly, I've hated this whole process and I'm so tired. I feel like we're getting close to actually doing something but I don't want to get hopeful either.

[ashelterofpages]

Yeah, it sure has been A Thing I Don't Love.

[ashelterofpages]

Thank you, that strength is really needed these days.

[ashelterofpages]

The people are so sweet and are all the kind of folks who care deeply about what they want to do, but also genuinely like each other as people too and that's pretty neat.

[ashelterofpages]

I thought about it for a few minutes, but I know I don't have the spoons to even try setting something up right now. It might be something I need to do but it feels like so much on top of everything else

[ashelterofpages]

That's such a tough place to be, but I'm glad you're both able to see what you need to do and actually do it. Those two things are not always true at the same time and it sucks.

[ashelterofpages]

I totally understand the feeling about divination. Sometimes it's something you need to put down and walk away from because even if it might be something that could be useful, you're not in a place where it actually would be. Or like, you need to hear things, but in a way that might be less harsh than how your methods of divination can provide.

My insurance has just been so terrible this whole time. *sigh*

[ashelterofpages]

<3 Thank you.

Sometimes how you are is just...Weird. Like, you're holding up and that's all you can say because going into more detail is complicated in one way or another. Either it's too back and forth, or there are intricacies that just make it hard to put into words or something else. It is A Lot.

[ashelterofpages]

It really is. I think about other people who are going through this too and I get so mad at all the things they have to be feeling every day they find their hands still tied with no one doing what they can to help them. (I've had multiple doctors reach out to me and try to sort things out, even if we've gotten nowhere. There's been a lot of care being shown and that's been nice)

[ashelterofpages]

Thank you. <3

[ashelterofpages]

Yeah, it's been awful. The doctors involved have been trying to do what they can but everything keeps coming back to either my insurance not covering what I need, or my case being way more difficult than someone feels comfortable taking on.

[lassarina]

I hate, hate hate hate hate, the entire concept of for-profit healthcare and insurance. HATE.