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I did the thing

2026-05-21T00:24:17Z

So, people in different places have mentioned starting a crowdfunding thing to help with my glasses. Which, I hadn't initially considered but well, I decided to do the thing. If I wasn't trying to both move and get glasses, I might not have done it, but here we are.

Here it isn

( the text from the GFM )

Anything, including sharing the link, would be amazing. And, honestly, just being able to have this space to flail about all this has been really helpful, so thank you all for reading and commenting. It's meant a lot.

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:heavy sigh:

2026-05-20T00:08:31Z

The subject line requires some context.

For those who don't know I'm blind/low vision. I can't see out of one eye, and I have very little sight in the other one. I've always been this way, but over the years, my vision deteriorates because one of my issues is glaucoma. In 2023-2024 I was having really bad pressure issues and I lost more sight in less time than normal because no one was listening to me when I said there was something wrong.

(Why yes, I'm still bitter about this. I was bothering doctors for a year and a half, and they only listened to me when my eye pressure was at 72. On the chance you don't know, your normal pressure is supposed to be around 10-15)

So, I've been dealing with adjusting to more vision lost the last few years. It's not been great, but I'm doing it. Today though, I went for a low vision exam. Basically they're people who can look into specialty lenses for glasses and stuff like that. As it turns out, there is a lens that can help me get more sight going in my left eye. Yay!

To get those glasses, it's going to cost me $1300.

I do not have this money. I was so, so excited all through the visit and then we got to cost and I just wanted to slowly tip over.

The specialist is going to reach out to local clubs to see if we can get some help covering them, but fuck it's so much money. And no, my insurance isn't going to help me at all.

They take CareCredit, which I do have and that'll cover some of it, but as you might remember, I'm trying to put money aside for a move. So that's going to be harder than it was before because I'm taking on one more payment.

And maybe it's a bad choice to take on more debt while I'm trying to move, but also I really want more fucking eyesight.

So yeah, very much a heavy sigh.

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ashelterofpages @ 2026-05-01T14:10:00

2026-05-01T18:12:12Z

Things I've watched over the past couple of months:

( A few movies and a TV show )

Anyway, besides that I'm here to report that I think my current meds change is doing really well for me. I'm getting normal stuff done, as well as writing related things, which is great, and even things like doing DW stuff and other bits of social media I keep meaning to try and check in on. It's kind of great.

I have some tarot related stuff to do over the next little wile because of 3WFDW, but I'll be doing them piecemeal while I let my foot heal up. Sadly, being in pain messes with everything else, so having brain to do things is hard.

(I hurt my foot in such a silly way. I was coming out of the shower and smacked it into a box while I was trying not to trip on something. I didn't know I'd really hurt it at first, but by the evening, I was really struggling to walk, so I had to call someone to help me do things like bring in groceries. I'm now at my normal house because moving is Very COmplicated right now.)

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Tarot prompt meme? Tarot prompt meme!

2026-04-26T18:47:02Z

Why yes, I am behind on many things and will be making another post later, but for now...

goodbybird has inspired me to join in the tarot fun and do prompts for Three Weeks For Dreamwidth!

Leave a comment with a request for one of the following decks and anything up to 4 cards and I'll draw some for you! You can ask for more than one prompt, but please do so in a separate comment and maybe give me a few days before you do.

The decks on offer- :
- Dark Wood Tarot
- Ghosts and Spirits Tarot
- Hayworth Tarot
- Embroidered Graveyard Oracle
- Outgrow Yourself Oracle
- Wild Unknown Archetypes

Feel free to use them in any way you like, and definitely come back here and show me! I'm so excited to see what people do with these!

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I just have ambient sound on right now and it's a good life choice

2026-04-11T20:29:07Z

Haven't worked on any icons yet, but I'm still intending to. I think the plan for that is going to be to do it when I'm not house-sitting so I have the better screen to do it with. Right now I'm on a 17in screen, which is fine, but it's a portable one that isn't the best for playing with something like graphics.

I will say that since I had that mindset shift about what I want to try to do every day, I'm seeing some interesting results.

1. I get a lot of stuff done on certain days, but then the next day I do less. This doesn't bother me, though, because I'm still getting a lot of life stuff done. I don't feel so guilty and awful on those second days, and that's the kind of thing I was hoping to accomplish.

2. I'm able to catch up on things like beta reading with less difficulty. Reading any fiction has been kind of hard lately, but I'm having an easier time getting to things I need to give feedback of some kind on, so that's nice.

3. My writing is...not really happening right now. Not drafting, and also not editing. I'm not sure what to make of that, but we'll see. This whole thing is still barely started, so maybe I just need to give it more time before I can start integrating words back into my life.

4. However, I did post on Bluesky asking for prompts to write microfiction off. I love doing these things every couple of months, so I'm looking forward to playing with those prompts soon.

So, I've been house-sitting for S again, which I can't recall if I've said or not on here yet, but I'm going back to my house tomorrow, then coming back here again on Monday. This is because I need to pick up some clothes, meds, and maybe a few other things while also swapping some stuff out too. Which is fine. Right now this is my life, switching between the two houses until S finally moves upstate.

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So, I think I want to get into making icons again

2026-04-07T18:48:27Z

So, to help me do that, I think I'm gonna ask y'all to drop off prompts of some kind and then I can start practicing doing the thing.

Right now I'm not in any fandoms, so I can't really use that to help me. If you want a fandom based icon, I'll still try and do it but maybe give me some screencaps or something to go off of, or at least link to an image of who you want the icon for so I know who I'm trying to track down when I start looking myself.

If you don't leave a fandom request and are happy with just some random stock type icons, just leave me some prompts of whatever you want, and I'll see what I can do.

I miss doing stuff like this, tbh, and I think it'll be good to play with something that isn't writing for a little while.

Disclaimer: I am very low vision, so these 1) may not come out great and 2) while I'm going to try not to use AI images, I may accidentally mess this up because I have an extremely hard time telling what stuff is made with genAI and what isn't. I try and go for sources that shouldn't have any, but I wanted to say this just in case I'm wrong about the image I choose.

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Brain? Brain. What're you doin', buddy?

2026-04-06T16:16:43Z

So, yesterday I kind of realized something. When I think about what it means to "do things" I really wasn't counting the things that matter. The things that build up a day, or make things pleasant, or anything like that.

I thought "doing things" meant making words, or actually consuming media, or things like that. In my brain doing something like making my bed, or lighting incense (things that make my life just a little more pleasant) weren't doing enough to matter. I didn't think actually putting away dishes was something that should count, and while taking a shower *sort of* counted, it didn't feel like actually doing something.

And like, this is not true? Doing the things that are building blocks for your life should absolutely count. Especially if you're someone who's not good at actually accomplishing those things every day (you know, someone like me.). All of those things matter and they're important for eventually allowing yourself to do the creative, fun things.

All of it is hard in one way or another. Showers are hard. Brushing my teeth is hard. But so is sitting down and writing, or actually watching a movie or reading. They're different kinds of hard, sure, but they're all difficult in one way or another. But, for whatever reason, I wans't giving myself any credit for doing those small, daily tasks that are important.

So, now I'm trying to pivot my brain a little bit and starting to do that. I literally sat down and made a big list of stuff I do/want to do and assigned points to them. The daily, life-oriented stuff gets the most points, and creative stuff gets a few less. It's not that the creative stuff isn't important, but for now I need to let myself embrace the idea that the actual life stuff is maybe worth as much, if not more, than those things.

We'll see how it goes, but since doing that, I got up at a decent time today, and have done a bunch of life stuff that is good for me. So like, we're doing good so far?

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ashelterofpages @ 2026-03-23T15:48:00

2026-03-23T19:49:01Z

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tags:
- habit/Braindump
- habit/Exercise
- habit/Going Outside
- habit/Meds
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Capybara tangent!

So, it was me, S, and some of her other friends. Everyone got on pretty well, and seemed to have a really good time. I'd met one of the folks before, but not the other two. H and I get along already, but never talk or anything but she knows the other two and they were her friends before they were S's.

The place we went wasn't actually a cafe but rather, a general animal encounter place. We weren't sure how it was going to go because well, those places aren't always run the best, but this one seems really, really great. It's tied to a rescue, and they vet the animals that go to that place, and are very careful with the amount of people that are in the encounter both at once, and throughout the day. They also kept an eye out on the animals and were willing to go "Okay, this little guy is done now so we're going to let him chill out."

So, we all felt really good about that, and are probably going to go back because they have other animals to befriend and stuff like this works a lot better for me and my vision rather than other things.

The two capybaras we met were named Tater Tot (tiny boyyyy), and Augustus (not so tiny boy. XD). They were both friendly with people, and were very food motivated, so we shared much lettuce with them. They're really bristly, which I didn't expect for some reason, and Augustus was very grumpy when he wasn't the center of attention. It was both endearing and kind of funny because Tater Tot was like three times as small as he was, but did not give a fuck.

We also got to meet a baby kangaroo! He was such a good, friendly little fellow and he tried to follow us into the room where the capybaras were. We got to pet him briefly and omg, I had no idea small kangaroos were so soft.

After we left, we stopped at an ice cream place and got some. S and I got a really nice and refreshing lemon ginger thing, and it was such a good choice. So tasty. They had a strawberry balsamic one too, which was...Eh. It really just tasted like mediocre strawberry. S has had something like that before and was like "Oh no, it should be a little different than that."

Then yesterday was like 3 hours of Dragon Age! It was great, I was so pleased! I'm having a blast and K is so kind and sweet. I kind of adore them and I'm so glad my partner is dating them too.

I have not seen more Exorcist, but hopefully that will change soo. Later today should be more Dragon Age though, assuming I'm not driving somewhere when the time rolls around. I'm going to be heading to S's house for some housesitting later today, so I miiiight not be able to do it. We'll see.

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ashelterofpages @ 2026-03-21T10:13:00

2026-03-21T14:15:03Z

So, a while back S learned that there was a capybara cafe in our area. We always meant to go, but never got around to doing it for various reasons. Then, when she started making real steps toward moving, we decided to go when she got an interview for a job.

Well, that happened pretty damn quick. Then again, so did everything with her moving. She signs for a house at the end of the month.

Anyway, today is capybara day! :D We're going this afternoon and I'm so excited!

I might have pictures, but I'm not entirely sure on that. However, because I was thinking about images, I did get fresh tattoo pictures!

( Tattoo pictures! )

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ashelterofpages @ 2026-03-18T21:47:00

2026-03-19T01:48:33Z

So, I fell really behind on Dreamwidth things. I don't know hat all happened exactly. I think part of it was being in and out of two different houses for a while. I'm settled back in my normal living situation though, so hopefully I'll be better again.

I did get the start of my tattoo done and it went really well. I love it so much, and even though my family doesn't like it much, it still makes me happy to see that I actually did this thing I've wanted to do for so many years.

~*~

As per usual, there's been family drama going on. The problem is that this time it was involving my own living situation, which didn't feel great. I thiiiink it's all settled now (we were going to maybe have someone move in with us, but we literally have nowhere to put him and he's kind of a terrible person to live with anyway). I'm not entirely sure on that because there's a factor that could change things very quickly, but I'm hoping things are done for now.

~*~

I've been getting dental work done this month, and while I'm not having a great time with it, I'm glad it's moving along.Tomorrow I'm getting my wisdom teeth taken out, which does not excite me even a little, and then at the beginning of April, I'm getting a filling put in.But thatshould be all I need done until my next cleaning, so that's exciting at least.

I also have an eye appointment on the 27th, but hopefully nothing will be exciting there. I always get nervous for eye stuff though because of my history (aka, my eyes are a disaster.).

~*~

To help myself stay sane and do some bonding with friends, I've started a playthrough of Dragon Age: Veilguard with one of my partner's other partners. We've hung out before, but never did something just the two of us, and they're a big Dragon Age fan and was really excited to get to share the game with me.
reat time and they're really good at reading everything for me, letting me make choices unless I tell them to, and giving me enough description that I can usually see what's going on in the game. I didn't know how this was going to go, but I'm having a great time, and I think they are too.

It's going really well! I'm having a g
I'm also watching The Exorcist TV show with a friend I'm going to visit in June. We're both writers and big horror fans, and have watched stuff together before. I have a running list of things we keep bringing up to stream together, and I think we're going to bounce between writing stuff and streaming stuff. It's exciting!

I have also got my best friend playing Bongo Cat with me and this is such a silly little game but I find it so fucking delightful. I also think it's helped me swing into something like a routine again, which is great!

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ashelterofpages @ 2026-02-19T12:04:00

2026-02-19T17:15:52Z

So, in a couple hours I'm going in for my first tattoo consolation! I'm So Nervous, folks. Like, also excited, and I know nothing is going to happen, but still. I have pictures of both work the artist has done in the past that i like/makes me think of what I want, as well as other images for reference of the things I'm actually looking to get done, but still. Vrrrr.

After that, I'm headed to S's house for the weekend/some of next week for house-sitting. I'll be all alone for the weekend that's going to be great. I'm going to try and get some writing done, but also I have some beta work I need to get through for a friend.

Oh, speaking of writing, I did get through all those stories I mentioned last weekend. I already got a rejection on one, but that's fine. I wasn't entirely sure on it, even though I really did like what I'd come up with. I wasn't sure it hit what they were looking for as well as I'd hoped it would.

I need to do some more zine work soon too. I have all the text worked out, but I want to go through some public domain image sites and get a few to mix into the zine itself. My plan is to go through the text I have, then make a list of things that I can search for and see what I can find/maybe do minor edits on. If I were a better artist, I'd try and draw stuff myself, but I'm a much better writier than I am anything else.

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Some writing links, both other people's things and my own

2026-02-04T17:37:26Z

Get something nice for doing things for various flavors of good causes.

Listen, the world sucks right now. It sucks a lot! But there's also a lot of good and people doing good. If you are out there doing good, I would like to do something for you. It's apparently been like six years since I've managed to put one of these together but here we go:

If you have made a financial contribution to a good cause* between the beginning of 2026 and now, the moment you are reading this, or any point during 2026 thereafter**, I'd like to do something for you.

However, I am fully aware that not everyone can do financial contributions. So if you have volunteered, signed petitions, contacted your representatives***, protested, trained, networked, etc., I would also like to do something for you.

I might do something like this as well, though I'll probably only do it for original fic right now. I'm still trying to sort through fandom stuff. But it would be nice to give people things to give them a smile, and I already do this kind of thing on Bluesky most months, so why not here too?

~~

I mentioned a couple of posts ago that I got a couple of things published last year. I thought I'd link them here on the off chance you're curious.

Linger Just A Little - 100-Foot Crow
Thisis a drabble I wrote in October for the theme of haunt'. It felt really good to have this one be in the world because I had a bit of a hard go this last quarter of the year, and this was a little boost when I needed it.

This is also free to read.

Ripped At The Seams - meat4meat
This was a story I wrote in January and had initially gotten rejected, but when the anthology went better than expected, they reached out to me and bought the story. This is an angry little story about being forced to be in a body that shouldn't be lived in, and the things we do to fight against those who make us exist that way.

The overall theme of the anthology was body horror written by trans and disabled authors, so you can kinda get the idea of what you'll find here. You can't read this one for free, but the anthology is linked, and if you're really curious, I'll send you a file of just my story.

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This got so much longer than I thought it would.

2026-02-04T02:52:15Z

So, one of the things I really, really like hearing about is how people keep track of things/how they organize themselves. (Hearing people talk about how they use spreadsheets gives me the good brain tingles. XD) The other day, I asked jennet about the things she tracks in regards to her writing/reading, and then wearing_tearing asked me about mine.

I was going to answer them in a comment, but I thought it might be fun to talk about the whole mess of it.

So, I'm going to start with reading because that's much shorter than writing.

This feels brief and yet somehow overly complicated.

Basically, I primarily read short stories. Like, to the point where I read a single digit amount of anything longer than 10k. Part of this is because it's the length I write in but part of it is that I just really enjoy reading shorter things. I also pivoted a lot when as my vision got worse and worse. Even when I started doing primarily audio reading, I read much more short fiction than long.

Anyway, so what I wind up doing with this is that I have a tab stack where I pull up things and store them. I do a new stack each month. Literally anything fictional I want to read goes in that stack. As I read them, I save them to a bookmarks folder that's labeled with the year and the month that's then filed under 'Monthly Read Archive'. I'll do the same thing with the stories I don't get to either and put them into 'Monthly Unread Archive'. I like having them saved so I can go back through the year and pick stuff out when nothing I have pulled up is grabbing my attention.

When it comes to stories I really enjoy and might want to read again, I have a file where I save the story title, author, where I read it, and a link to the story. I then also write a little off-the-cuff review for it and save all that. Not only do I do this for my own reference, but I use all this for when I'm writing the newsletter I mentioned a few posts back.

I want to find a way to do some better archiving for stories I maybe read and liked, but don't feel like I want to shout about. With the bookmarks folder, I save *everything* I want to read, but it'd be cool to have a way to glance through just the things I really liked, but maybe didn't love or have things to say about it.

My writing stuff is a little more involved.

God, this is so much longer.

Things to know:
- I (at this point) exclusively write original fiction. I cut my teeth in fanfic and love it, but I fell out of writing it years ago. (I do, however, have the 3SF pulled up, so who knows what might happen. >.>)
- I write short fiction for submission (most of the time).
- I use multiple spreadsheets but you could probably knock these down to a single one if you're building your own. I, however, am not that talented.
- You can also probably use spreadsheets for *everything* I track, but I don't quite get there.

So, okay, with all that in mind, here we go.

I'll start with the part that's not in a spreadsheet. What that winds up being is maintaining a list of submission calls that are coming up through the year. This is a living document so I'm updating it when I run into interesting things, and clearing out things if I miss the deadline, decide I'm not going to actually submit, or did manage to get a story in.

I have a section for each month of the year, as well as a section for things that are opening for multiple months. If a venue opens multiple times a year, each opening gets its own entry.

In every entry I include:
- Opening and closing dates.
- A link to the submission itself with a title that mentions the venue itself
- The general theme/vibe that they're looking for
- Wordcount.
- Sometimes I include payrate but I don't do this all the time because it's not always important to me.
If something has multiple categories, I'll make a new entry for each one. So, one for fiction, one for poetry for example.

If I have an idea for a story that might work, or one I want to try and get into shape, I note down that story in a bullet point. If there are multiple possibilities, I put them all down.

So, that's part of it.

Everything else lives in spreadsheets.

Speaking of, I have:
- The new draft wordcount spreadsheet is what it says on the tin.
- The edited draft wordcount spreadsheet is also what it says on the tin. I like having these two counts separate because they're different kinds of mindsets, and 100 fresh words is very different feeling than 100 edited words.
- My GYWO habit tracker.

- The story notes tracking sheet is it's own thing.
In this one I have a few sections. First is the date, then the designation/title, the word count (and I mark if I did edits or new words), my overall mood as I was writing/how I felt when I finished, the things that went well/easily for me, the things that I struggled more with, and finally just a section for random notes. I use these for whatever I feel like. Being excited, talking about what I'm going to do next with it, random commentary about my characters being ridiculous. Anything goes for the notes section.

Each month gets a new page in the overall spreadsheet until I get through the whole year, then I make a whole new one.

And finally, I just have the "Full Story Tracking" collection. One day I'll name this something better or...something. It's not a great label for it, but I know what's in it, so I guess that's what matters most.

This one has a few separate sheets inside it.
- The stories themselves.:
This one holds all the stories I've written. WIPs, finished, published, or still submitting. On this sheet I have sections for story title, wordcount, whether it's finished or not, how many times it's been rejected, where it's been accepted, how much I got paid for it, and some kind of link to it. In the section where I mark down the number of rejections, I make a comment and list out exactly where those have come from so I'm sure I don't resubmit, or if I do, it's been several years and I know the story is significantly different than the last time they saw it.

- Yearly Submissions.
Each year I make a new sheet for noting down the actual story submissions. Here, I write down the story being submitted, the venue it's at, the day it got submitted, the day I heard back, and whether it was accepted or rejected. Something I keep meaning to add into this section is if the story can be submitted to multiple places at once (some venues want to be the only place looking at the story), but I keep forgetting to do that.

- And this last sheet is just my yearly stats
Each year has a row to itself and the columns are year, total submissions made, new submission stories written, new poems written (this is more hoping for the future than anything), new for-fun stories written (I try and have a healthy mix of Serious Writing and silly things that might involve characters in my RP or something), the total number of rejections, the total number of acceptances, the total number of hold notices, and finally, the total number of personal rejections.

So yeah, that's all of it I think. Are there more elegant ways of tracking all this? Oh, I have zero doubt. One day I might even let myself take out the two wordcount spreadsheets and just use my GYWO one and mark in there whether the words are new words or edited ones. Yet, this is how I've managed to scrape things together. It works well enough for me, and I guess that's what matters, right?

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On my way I found a stone...

2026-01-30T03:05:15Z

Today has been A Lot.

I had to both panic navigate insurance because my eye doctor isn't covered by the one I have and I need to see him relatively soon, and my cousin came over with a major mental health crisis. We've had people in and out of the house all day, and I'm not mad that people are here (my cousin deserves to feel like he's supported by his family) but we live in a two bedroom and there are already four people, four cats, and two decent sized dogs here by default.

Tomorrow I see my friend for pastries and boba. She's taking the first steps toward moving out of the area, so I'm eager to have as much time with her as I can. I'm happy she's going to be closer to her family, but not having her around is going to be hard.

I thought I had a third thing to say, but my brain is kind of splat right now and I need to make myself do other useful things anyway.

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Oh hey, I've managed this two days in a row!

2026-01-28T01:40:26Z

So, my sleep is really weird right now. One day I'll go to bed some time after midnight and wake up around 8am. The next day I'll go to bed before midnight and wake up after 2pm. I have no idea what's happening there, but it'd be super cool if my body got its shit together.

I had stuff I meant to do today, but instead I slopped around in bed, even after I woke up, and cuddled my cat. I'll go to bed late tonight, wake up early tomorrow and get all that stuff done. At least I queued up some posts I needed to put out yesterday, so I wasn't late on releasing a thing, and will have something else going out on Thursday.

(On the off chance there are people on my reading list who enjoy speculative short fiction, I put out a newsletter on (most) Tuesdays recommending two stories I've really enjoyed recently. Feel free to subscribe if you're into that kind of thing!)

Mention of doctors but nothing serious/bad

I have a psych appointment on Thursday that I have to dig out some money for, but I also found out that my health insurance is going to cover my birth control stuff for my PMDD, so I'm fucking thrilled by this! I got the script yesterday and will be picking that up once I get disability for February. I'm really hoping this is going to be good for me, cause without doing something, my cycle is absolutely debilitating.

I hope all of you have had a nice time of things and those of you with the kinds of pets who do that kind of thing have gotten many cuddles.

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Oh hey, I'm alive.

2026-01-26T15:24:07Z

:sheepishly waves at everyone:

It has been uh, a long time since I've been here. The thing is it's not that I'm not on DW, I do volunteering over at getyourwordsout and was posting stuff all last year for them. However, something about coming onto my personal journal was really hard, as was checking my reading page.

But I want to try and do better this year, so here we go.

For those who are curious, a quick, unordered, 2025 recap:
- Joined Codex
- Got two stories published
- Wrote a whole bunch more that I'm really happy with.
- Went to Seattle twice
- Went to my (now yearly) gaming convention.
- Went to ICFA in March and met some people I've known for years
- Did a collaborative interactive fiction project with a friend that is available to play.
- Went to my first wedding reception
- Spent my birthday in Seattle (even if that was uh, Complicated)

There was other stuff as well, but that's what's sticking out in my mind. Coming back from Seattle in December was hard, but I'm doing a lot better now. It's part of why I'm here, honestly. Hopefully this year I'll be able to write more about how things go and look back on it with a smile.

I'm not too sure what all this space is going to look like yet, but I suppose we'll find out. I don't want to say for sure what I'm hoping for because I want to let this form organically. Maybe I'll write about the media I'm consuming (the last two things I've watched are Hazbin Hotel and Helluva Boss, both of which I loved), or maybe it'll just be life stuff. We'll have to see.

I hope everyone else has had a lovely over-a-year and I'm excited to start keeping up with everyone again!

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ashelterofpages @ 2024-10-12T19:16:00

2024-10-12T23:21:30Z

Today is my birthday and I'm spending it in a hotel room, sitting on a chair that's missing one wheel. I still have no power in my house and my mother is refusing to leave it now that we're not in direct danger from the hurricane. Which, fine, it's her choice, but I needed to go because it was getting too hot for me to be able to stay. We're probably going back there tomorrow but some of the reports are saying we may not get power back until Thursday, so who knows what's going to happen.

I really just want to be in my room, with my cat right now. I'm trying not to be upset or sad about any of this, but I'm not really doing great at it.

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ashelterofpages @ 2024-10-11T19:37:00

2024-10-11T23:43:55Z

Just letting everyone know I am okay. We have no power but we took no damage so that's definitely a good thing.

We're hoping that'll get fixed soon. I'll be sure to let folks know for sure when it does though.

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ashelterofpages @ 2024-10-09T15:59:00

2024-10-09T20:05:06Z

( Milton notes (I live in Tampa) )

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ashelterofpages @ 2024-09-22T19:10:00

2024-09-22T23:20:50Z

So, I wanted to drop in and let y'all know how I'm doing.

( eye/medical updates )

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Still hanging in there.

2024-09-08T00:38:52Z

I've had a lot going on medically over the last several months and it's not going well. The short version is that insurance isn't allowing me to get procedures done that are medically needed for me to continue to keep my eyesight. It sucks, I'm tired, but we're still fighting it in a number of ways.

I started volunteering with a local nonprofit which is going really well. They're great people who want to work with me and help me find things I can do, even as the rest of my life and ability to do things is in flux. They're kind and very open to hearing ideas and giving them a try. They're pretty great.

I've found my way back to divination again. This is partially art store/nonprofit related but also just kind of something I've meant to do in general. I'm going back to the tarot post that I made earlier this year and doing those responses, just in case someone might need a late card reading.

I'm generally just operating on very low spoons but trying to keep my head up and find the good things where I can. It's going...as well as it can, I suppose, which is all I can ask for.

How're you holding up?

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ashelterofpages @ 2024-05-06T16:20:00

2024-05-06T23:42:46Z

Hey look, here I am again!

So, because it's 3weeks4dreamwidth time, I thought I'd do something fun and that I've really missed doing. Plus, it's one more reason to get me back in the swing of replying to comments and checking my reading list.

- Leave a comment and I'll pull you at least one tarot card and one oracle card.
- My two oracle decks right now are The Wild Unknown Archetypes and The Embroidered Graveyard. Let me know which you'd prefer.
- Along with your choice, go ahead and tell me something cool you've seen on DW lately. It can be a comm, a post, a comment thread. Alternately, you can tell us something you'd like to see more of!
- Everyone should look through the comments for some interesting things, or cool ideas to start putting up around here.

With your reading, I'm also oferring to give you a little piece of micro/flash fiction inspired either by the cards I pull, the thing you share, or some combination of the two!

So yeah, I thought this could be fun! Comm look through the comments and see if you can find something cool to explore, or maybe some inspiration on new things to do.

Also, on the off chance you'd like to leave me a tip, my kofi is here.

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ashelterofpages @ 2024-05-02T17:25:00

2024-05-03T00:32:28Z

Since I'm doing what I can to get back into DW, I've stripped down to the basics of trying to check my reading list each day again, even if I don't post. I've managed for 3 days now, which is good! And I'm doing this post now, which is also good!

I'm still in Seattle until the middle of May, then I'm going back to FL for eye care stuff. We'll see how things go from there.

Still seem to be reading regularly, which is great. Not doing much writing at all though, which is something I need to work on.

I'm possibly gonna do something for Three Weeks for Dreamwidth, but I'm not sure yet, we shall see.

Hoping all of you are doing well. <3

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ashelterofpages @ 2024-03-22T19:10:00

2024-03-22T23:18:59Z

Haven't updated in a while, but not as long as it could have been, so I'm calling it a win.

It's been a rough time, mostly due to vision/accepting disability stuff, and not having all of my meds for a while. I've not been doing much of anything, though I have really managed to get back into reading, and that's been pretty great.

Here are three good things:
- So many books! Not all of them have been hits, and I've DNFed one, but I've really fallen back intto the habit of reading things besides shor sories and tha's been nice. If anyone would like a list of what I've gone hrough, le me knoww.
- Last week, a friend took me and another of her friends to an AirBNB by the river where we all just hung out for a couple of days. It was really grereat, and I'm so grateful for her while I'm still in Florida..
- I'm heading to Seattle this next Wednesday for...a time. I'm not sure when I'm coming back, as I'll be waiting for a phone call for my corneal stuff, so when I know that, I'll be purchasing my ticket back.

I've also got a couple of tarot decks I'm trying to get to know, so if you want a reading of some kind, feel free to let me know. I can easily do one card readings, but have nothing against doing longer ones too, just let me know.

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Reading!

2024-02-14T18:07:01Z

So, last week I asked about linking to the short fiction I was reading that was available online, and everyone was super supportive about it, which was just lovely.

Which means that on this Reading Wednesday (actually on Wednesday!) I present to you some of the short fiction I've been reading.

Things of note:
- A lot of these stories have some kind of queer element to them, if that's something you're actively seeking out.
- Some mention content warnings before the story itself, which I want to mention since I haven't listed any here.
- I grouped them as well as I could, but all of these are relative. I just thought I'd try and break them up a little bit, since I know not everyone leans into the more horror/heavier stuff.

Horror, horror adjacent:
- Your Own Undoing - PH Lee
- If Someone You Love Has Become a Vurdalak - Sam J. Miller
- The Skin We're In - Shelley Lavigne.

Fantasy, or fantasy adjacent:
- Hundreds - Mari Ness
- The Song Of The Woods - Shelley Lavivne
- Flower, Daughter, Soil, Seed - Eugenia Triantafyllou

- Further Examination and Capture of Candle Skulls Associated with the Baba Yaga - Mari Ness

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